"BONGEH" INI RASA

~BONGEH~

The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.

wahhhh semakin terasa-rasa

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.

Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

p.s. please be safe

~THE TRUTH HURTS~

Dear .....,

Harini masuk hari ke-14 pergi keje...Supposedly masuk office before 9, but i used to be at 9.30 everyday...Heheheh...Malaslah nak keje sebenarnye, tapi memikirkan sem depan dah x dapat kemudahan kolej lagi, then ape lah nak buat...Kenalah berusaha sedaya upaya mencari sesuap nasik buat simpanan di masa hadapan...

Minggu pertama dan kedua bekerja, teramatlah sibuk walaupun kadang-kadang saja je nak buat-buat sibuk kan... Tapi banyak pulak tender yang terjual kat negeri Kedah ni, jadinya banyak lah kerjanya aku sbg QS...Huhhh bosanlah asyik membuat kerja yang sama...Supposedly aku merancang nak turun site minggu ni, tapi kena KIV lg lah nampaknya,... Siapkan dulu apa yang patut kat ofis ni...

A

Btw, dalam saat2 macam ni, dengan keadaan di ofis, dengan letihnya lagi, dengan masalah adik lagi,..die pun dah hilang...die dah xde lagi, die dah pergi, die dah lupe...Cepatnye die kan... Persahabatan dah terputus, sedihnye...Dah xde lagi kedengaran die mengusik, die mengadu, die mengambil berat, die bertanyakan itu dan ini..Dah tak ade lagi...Die dah tak ade lagi untuk mengubat hati yang tengah merunsing, die dah tak ade lagi untuk membakar semangat...Dah tak ade lagi die yang sentiasa busykan diri dgn persatuan die walaupun kadang2 bukan tugasnye pun...Die pembakar semangat sebenarnye... Dah x ade lagi die yang Comel tu...Camne agaknye sem depan kalau terserempak dengan die kat sekolah? Ape aku nak buat kat die? Nak senyum? Nak bermasam muka? Tak mungkinlah nak bermasam muka, dah banyak benda yang die tolong aku, tak mungkin lah aku berbuat begitu...Habes tu, nak senyum ke? Maukah die membalas senyumku? Maukah die menegurku? Maukah die? Die menolong aku, tapi dalam masa yang sama, die menggunakan aku... Sebabnye? Biar die seniri yang menjawabnye sebab die je yang tau jawapannye... 

GOODBYE KISS, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING

P.s, please be safe, K

Get the Vote, Gals!!!!

Dear Girls,

What if your love life depended on a vote?

What's the first thing that came to your mind when that question being asked to you?

Did you think about your man voting for YOU?

In other words, voting for you as the woman of his dreams, the woman he wants to be  with forever?

That's the way I always looked at it - as though I were RUNNING for the office of "girlfriend," or "wife."

Looking back - it was as if I were draping myself in my credentials, showing off my skills, like "niceness," and "understanding," and "sexy," and "smart," and "funny," and so many other things I thought he'd "love" about me - things I thought would make him fall in love with me forever.

And, of course - none of those things mean ANYTHING when it comes to a man FALLING IN LOVE.

A man does not fall for "qualities."

A man just "FALLS."

And then he automatically "votes" for you for girlfriend and wife - because he can't even see himself without you.

So - how do you really get his vote?

How do you get him to fall?

THEREFORE Girls, you have to vote for YOURSELF

Instead of finding yourself thinking about him all the time, worrying about how he feels all the time, stressing about every woman he comes in contact with and speaks to, every beautiful, sexy woman he LOOKS at - even on TV - 

there are many ways we can push a man away without even knowing we're doing it. We can do it by Over functioning. We can do it by Thinking and Doing instead of Feeling and Being. We can push a man away by giving him more than he gives us, or by pretending.

Huuuuu~~ that's all for today! Thank you! XOXO

"Safe"

Hard to find a way to get through
It's a tragedy
Pulling at me like the stars do
You're like gravity
Even if the wind blows
It makes it hard to believe

How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real
And If you lost your way
I will keep you safe
We'll open up all the world inside
I see it come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

Doesn't even matter to you
To see what I can see
I'm crawling on the floor to reach you
I'm a wreck you see
When you're far from home now
Makes it hard to believe

So how ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real

If you've lost your way
I will keep you safe
Well open up all your world inside
Til you come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

We all fall down
We all feel down
Cus rainy days and summer highs
The more we pray the more we feel alive

How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real
How ya gonna love
How ya gonna feel
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real

If you've lost your way
I will keep you safe
Well open up all your world inside
So you come alive tonight
I will keep you safe

Well I will keep you safe
I will keep you safe

P.S, Wherever you are, please be safe

JANGAN PERNAH BERUBAH

...biarkan waktu teruslah berputar...

...ku cintai kamu penuh rasa sabar...

...meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan...

...ku ikhlas tuk bertahan...

...cintaku padamu begitu besar...

...namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan...

...malah kini kau ucapkan selamat tinggal...

...membuat keresahan...

...meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan...

...hingga ku jatuhkan air mata...

...kekecewaanku sungguh tak berarah...

...biarkan ku harus bertahan...

...jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah...

...tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah...

...jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah...

...tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah...

...jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah...

...ku relakan yang indah dalam hatinya...

Senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa

Assalamualaikum et Bonjour 

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Huuhuuu lately asek tersenyum saje...

Dah lame tk senyum2 mcm ni...it's been an ages...

Hari ni lagi bertambah2 nak senyum...

Penat-penat pergi berjoging kat tasik seksyen 7 tiap pagi...

Walaupun pergi berjemput, penatnye tetap terase...

3 round berlari...huhuuu...tp ade jugek part berjalan, ..

Saya yg semput, bkn org yg temankan sy...

Org yg temankan sy maintain je, ...

Harini, pertama kali dalam hidup saya...

Ade org bake cake specially utk sy...tanpa sbrg ocassion...

Aaaaaa...cedappnye cake die ...Suke!!

Tambah2 ade chocolate chips manyak2...nyamm3...jangan jeles!huuhuu

Harini jugek..die buat surprise utk sy lg..

Banyaknye surprise die...

Sbb die tak call kejut sy subuh td, sy pun called die...

Die x angkat phone...

"Aiyaaaa die ni, mesti daa tido mati,...mesti da penat sgt sbb baking cake smlm"

Mesti takde joging pagi ni...

Lalu sy pergi berry-berry skjp...Hikhiks..

Selesai kerje sy, ade 5 misscall dari die...

Katanya sorry awk, saya terbangun lambat, nnt sy sampai k, tapi lmbt sket..

Huuuu yeeaayy ade joging laa pagi ni!!

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Lepas joging je, die kluarkan cake...

Die kluarkan sumthing kt dlm plastic...byk jugek plastic2 tu...

Rupanya die buatkan breakfast...

Awk, sbnrnye td bkn sy bangun lambat...

Sy da bangun awal, tp tgh siapkan breakfast utk awak..

Sy sengaje tak agkt phone..*hihiks*

Dan sy sengaje nak dtg lambat sbb sy nk blnje awak eskrem...

(p.s. sbb mlm sebelumnye die janji, klu die terlambat die nk blnje sy eskrem)

Sorry ye awk!

Dan saya......

Bertambah-tambah tersenyum laaa....

p.s, I thank You, Hanis  :)

...Panassss Panassss...

Assalamualaikum et bonjour, lamanye aku dah menyepi dari blog nih, bkn disengajakan pun, tp aku sgt BZ..wuuhuuu..btol2 BZ la, klu haritu BZ dgn submission dan presentation, recently BZ dgn preparation utk exams pulak..huhhh, ni laa dia tugasnya kalau dah mmg bergelar student...haritu aku pulang ke kampung, then cik Zetty ajak keluar minum2 kejap sbb lama sgt kami x bjumpa..lalu, aku pun cadangkan pergi food court star parade je lah, ngidam sgt nk mkn lazania aunty tuu...then,cik zetty ni ajak officemate nye skali, opismate nye cik zetty adelah lelaki, yg masih mencari-cari calon isterinye, kerjenye pon bagus,dah stable financial nye...okeh, bkn nk highlight kt situ, tapi salah satu kata-katanya, "enjoyla hidup slagi bergelar student, sbb bile dah klua bkeje nnt, 24/7 asek pening bile kenangkan keje dan tanggungjawab"...btol laa kata2 en.hasbi hasyriqi tu, sbb aku pun pnh lalui zaman bkeje hmpir 2 thn jgk...aaaaarrrr tak suke keje, nk dok umah je bleh nnt????


huuuuu...dlm tempoh aku tak update cerita2 kat cni, byk perkara yg aku lalui..banyaaaaaaaakkkk sgt..hmmm, perlukah aku ceritakan kt cni??tak perlu kot...Kak long dah berpesan kat aku, ko jgn mencari bala, nanti diri kau seniri yang sakit...hmmm, ape leh aku buat kak long, saat aku mahu bukakan pintu hatiku pada org lain, tapi ade saje benda yang menghalang aku...aku tahu, aku tengah mengambil risiko, risiko yang tinggi sangat, tapi aku tak mampu nk halangnya...makin aku nak jauhkan diri, makin die dekat dengan aku, ..bila akucuba nak hilangkan diri aku, semangat aku pula mula menghilang..aku tanak macam tu, aku nak sentiasa besemangat mcm skrg, sbb dia ade je at anytime aku perlukan die...aku tahu, cerita ni takkan berkekalan, cerita ni bakal menyakitkan dan mengecewakan aku lagi suatu hari nanti, tapi biarlaa ...aku dah setkan minda ku, cerita ni dan bahagia ni hanya sementara, jadi biarlah apa yang aku lalui ni walaupun sekejap saje, ianye bakal menjadi memori indah dlm hidup aku...suatu hari nnt, aku tahu aku bakal menangis lagi...die pulak dah berjaye buat aku sukakan die, dan  ...elok aku gambarkan segalanye sperti dlm lagu rossa ni, 

ku menunggu, ku menunggu kau putus dengan kekasihmu

tak akan ku ganggu kau dengan kekasihmu

ku kan selalu di sini untuk menunggumu

cinta itu ku berharap kau kelak kan cintai aku

saat kau telah tak bersama kekasihmu

ku lakukan semua agar kau cintaiku

haruskah ku bilang cinta

hati senang namun bimbang

ada cemburu juga rindu

ku tetap menunggu

haruskah ku bilang cinta

hati senang namun bimbang

dan kau sudah ada yang punya

ku tetap menunggu

datang padaku, ku tahu kelak kau kan datang kepadaku

saat kau sadar betapa ku cintaimu

ku akan selalu setia tuk menunggumu

haruskah ku bilang cinta

hati senang namun bimbang

ada cemburu dan juga rindu

dan aku tetap menunggu

haruskah ku bilang cinta

hati senang namun bimbang

dan kau sudah ada yang punya

ku tetap menunggu

(aku tetap menunggu) ku tetap menunggu

(aku tetap menunggu) ku tetap menunggu

ku tetap menunggu

p.s. I am totally in forbidden love, 

Yummy Yummy

Apakah ini???

Cukuplah ianya digambarkan dengan gambaran-gambaran di bawah ini....

Weeehhhuuuuuu......

yg mn satu nk focus ni??byk sgt brg kt ats meja nan sepah nihh

bikin closed up lg....nampak x???nmpk x???

haa...ni laahh die....sedapp ooo!!!!!

:P